Monday, April 13, 2009


SO someone or something somewhere does not want me to catch a break. Atleast its how I feel at the moment. My dad ended up being admitted to the hospital today. Logans bday party is Saturday. I have a TON to do before then. My brother brought my mom to my house to stay here. How in the world am I going to squeeze this in now!!!??? I know my dad has no control that he ended up in the hospital.
I am at the point now of giving up pretty much. I mean really just let my dad go and be at peace now if there really is no chance. I may be horrible for thinking this way but why drag it out any longer. I just don't know what to do anymore.
My mom needs to be in a home where they can care for her the way she needs to be cared for. I can't do it anymore! I just cant!! I really feel I am at my breaking point now. All I keep saying recently is that I am done. I even said it to my dad last week. I guess I give up.....thats pretty sucky. I am feeling really down tonight and just really angry. I dont even know what I am angry about. I am mad still that I am going to lose both of my parents. In a sense I really already lost my mom pretty much. I am mad my dad won't get it thru his thick head that he can't take care of my mom. I am mad that I am female and apparently only I can take care of my mom.(weird, I know) I am mad that I havent even had a chance to feel the way I should be feeling going thru all I am going thru. I am mad the Dr didnt catch it sooner. I am mad taht I am gonna have to bring my mom with me everywhere I have to go this week and worry about if she is going to faint on me. I know she is gonna have a fainting spell, She can not be at stores anymore. Its way to overwhelming for her. How in the hell am I gonna get anything ready for this weekend? I am mad that I just now found out that Medicare will cover home health...all I need to do is have the Dr write an order for it!! WHY NO ONE TOLD ME THIS BACK IN OCTOBER IS BEYOUND ME!!!
I am mad I need to feel this way. I am not an angry person at all. I am always easy going and happy. Don't get me wrong I get mad, but this is just all to much. I just need help.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

My Luck......

So it was 2:46 this afternoon and guess where I was?? Yep thats right...we were still home!! No respite showed up!! So I call the number and they get ahold of Patty (the one in charge). So she calls me and has me refresh her memory about my parents cause she was not in the office. She asked me the name of the nurse who was suppose to come out...well I have every other name written but who was suppose to come out. So Patty says I need to go to the office and check my papers. So she calls me back and says.."I have it written here to start on Feb 28." I said "No Feb 8....2/8.....Not 2/28 fron 2pm to 8pm"..So yeah a mistake was made and we got! So I cry..then I say screw it lets go there are TV dinners in the freezer!
So we go ...but we still don't even know where we are going. We decide to go eat and find an Old Country Buffett....and Lily wants to go there cause she remembered when we went there with Velia and Diego and LOVED the corn there...lmao! So all is good there. Next stop...Chuckee Cheese....SO CROWDED....warning "DO NOT GO THERE ON SUNDAYS!" So we stay for about an hour and leave. Next stop....USA Skate Center ....... Sunday nights the have family skate from 6-9pm and for only $25 You can have 1 parent and 4 kids..and you get a pizza and a pitcher of pop. So that was great deal! IT was SO fun! Work but fun! lol And I now need to buy a pair of skates with pink flames!HA! We are going to try to go there every Sunday now...we had a blast!! We decided to hit Target on the way home to...Dennis HAS to shop when he is off work! LOL So after all it turned out to be a great evening! Pic time!!
Ok well apparently I will have to get back to the pics cause its not working for me......

A Day Off!

Well sort of...from 2pm-8pm I have respite comming here to look after my parents. So our family can go somewhere...which I have no idea where yet!! Lily wants to go to chuckee cheese...which is fine but I want to think of somewhere else to go. Maybe downtown..its in the 40's today!! Yay for a warm front! Except everything is muddy and yucky now! I like the idea of someone comming to give me a break..but I am not fond of the idea of a stranger being in my house when I am not here. She will be cooking for them I think...and hopefully give my mom a shower...this is what I was told they do. This also means I have to clean....UGH so I have about 2 hours to clean and then I will have an hour to get me and the kids ready...hmmm Well I suppose I should get on that!! Well here's to a good day I hope!!!

Saturday, February 7, 2009


One my most favorite Etsy shops is doing a giveaway on her blog! Happy Paper is a very talented woman! She has these WONDERFUL paper bag photo albums that are super cute! She also does custom work if needed. I have given her access to my photobucket and she picked out the best pics for my custom albums I had made for my Mother in law and Sister inlaw. I could not have been happier!

So if you are looking for a unique gift...whether it be birthday, mothers day, fathers day, wedding, or baby shower gift, Happy Paper is the place to get it! you won't be disappointed!!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Great Give Away!!

So I was cruising through some of the blogs I recently found and like and found a great give away on this blog. Its a super cute Valentine card set! All you need to make your own cards! Its from an Etsy shop called Say It With Letters.They have all kinds of wood letters, card sets, embellishments, ribbons anything you would need for a scrapbooking or altering project! Check them out!


So I finally figured out how to change my background on here!! YAY!!! Oh and I know how to put buttons on too now!! Uh Oh look out blogger world!! LMAO Speaking of buttons...Jenn you need to get one please!
So today my new futon was delivered...and ofcourse Dennis hates it...but I knew that would happen...And why do they not look so big in the store? Cause this thing is huge!! It does not fit well infront of my window like I thought it would!! oops! Lily is going to be thrilled when she gets home! She is dying to sleep on it! Oh and the cushion is I will have to buy a cover for it...does not go well with my house! My walls are a deep red, my couch is a sage adding blue makes it look like a circus ring! HA! Although that is what my house feels like lately! LOL
Hmmm waht else is new..... I have been working on this nifty little craft for Valentines all my special pw friends can get one....thats if I mail it out! Cause lately I suck! And pretty soon my special friends are going to start talking about me being a HORRIBLE swap partner!! But I promise I am not usually this bad!!
I am working on getting my parents back home...hopefully REAL soon! I did get approved for respite to come out for a total of 57 hours a year! So that will be nice. I will have someone here on Sundays from 2pm-8pm so Dennis and I can take the kids somewhere and not worry about taking care of my parents. Now I just need my brother to quicly get ahold of the attorney so we can get my parents Assets straight so I can get them a homemaker at THEIR house!! YAHOOOOOO!!!! It is not safe for my kids with them here.....especially with my mom losing her temper lately. About to weeks ago she picked Logan up and threw him, and Dennis was here!!! I found pills in Lily's room from my mom....which is insane cause I watch her take them...she must hide it in her mouth. But if Logan got in there he would definately eat it thinking it's candy. NOT GOOD!
So yeah hopefully they will go back home soon!

Monday, January 19, 2009

Scensational Scentsys!!

SO I had my first scentsy party on Saturday. Jamie was my hostess. She decided to do a wine theme party. So we had lots of wine, cheeses, celery and other snacks. We did a girls night out party. She also had her cousin there who is a consulant for Mary Kay. All was well until a few people had to leave. Two of them left really aprubtly..which was strange...suuure drink all the wine and leave! LOL Well anyways it was a great turn out we had about 10 girls there, but poor Jamie only got 2 orders only reaching like $75. I felt SO bad!! We are gonna keep the party open until Friday cause there are a few people who ar still suppose to order. So I hope they do so Jamie can get lots of free Scentsys! Ok well on to my pics cause my display looked SO damn cute!! LOL

A little update: Jamie ended up getting a whopping $360 in orders!!! She got an awesome amount of Scentsy Hostess Rewards! I am so glad it all worked out well!!